I have been without voice or almost -mute for five days now. I communicate with my teenage
savages sons via rude gestures sign language, iPhone messages and ape-like grunts. The savages teenagers have taken over the house as the alpha male has been away on business for over a week now and let me tell you all is not well. If it wasn’t for the fact that I can still both see and hear I am certain they would have let all their Facebook ‘friends’ know there is a PARTY (!) at our house and I would wake up to toilet paper and other unmentionables hanging from the chandeliers. We don’t have chandeliers but you get the picture.
I’ve been texting their father (my husband) for help. Here’s an excerpt:
Teens In Revolt.
They must help you around the house.
U hav a sense of humour.
Take away their privileges.
Pleeze. My throat hurts when I laugh.
Take their iPhones.
It’s how I let them know dinner is ready.
Why r u cooking for them?
‘They’re boys. If I don’t give them their greens and protein they’ll just go to McDonalds.”
Let them eat cake!
I’ll have to go buy some.
Anyway I know why I lost my voice. Physically it’s because a forest of grass and ragweed invaded my airways (allergic rhinitis). But the emotional and psychological component to this ailment (laryngitis) is I didn’t speak/open up about certain issues with one of my clients. For several weeks now she has been doing and saying things that are counterproductive to what was agreed upon. I should have pointed it out to her the first time she had ‘a lapse in judgement’ and perhaps even said something about the fact that she had missed not one but two important meetings with potential clients because she ‘forgot to check her email’. (For those of you interested in psychological terms and definitions such behaviour is otherwise known as passive aggressive behaviour) I stayed mum when I shouldn’t have. I hate to admit this but right now I can’t afford to lose this client. I agreed to work with this person because I believed in her and her vision of success for her fledgeling business. Since the body and mind work in sync my body is now ‘manifesting’ the ‘staying mum’ part of this story. It’s reminding me – in a painful, demoralizing way – that the choice I made went against who I am. I betrayed one of my fundamental values.
Personal integrity is important to me and has higher priority than personal gain. And all my relationships personal or otherwise are based on honesty and openness. I’m a straight shooter. Have to be if I am to be of real service to my clients but it became evident early on that this particular client does not take well to any advice or direction of any sort. (True success comes with a healthy dollop of humility and a willingness to learn). Which explains why her business is not thriving but plodding along.
I know what I have to do this coming week and I bet you anything whether I lose her as a client or not I will be 100% better once I’ve ‘cleared the air’.
Do you or have you experienced something similar? Are you aware of any particular physical manifestation to an emotional or psychological ailment?